"I don't know what to believe, to be honest with you".
Shayanna Jenkins, the fiancee of former New England Patriots Aaron Hernandez, listens during his murder trial at the Bristol County Superior Court in Fall River, Mass., Feb. 25, 2015.
The former New England Patriots tight end died of an apparent suicide last month while serving a life sentence following a murder conviction. His death has been ruled a suicide.
She said he never talked to her about suicide.
It remains unclear whether Jenkins-Hernandez will receive a National Football League pension or other funds due to ongoing wrongful-death litigation. "He definitely was emotional and we had talks about encouragement".
The interview, which is set to air Monday and Tuesday, also touches on the rumors that Aaron was gay. A judge vacated his conviction last week, citing a seldom used MA law.
Hernandez was found dead in his cell just days after being found not guilty in a double homicide case from 2012.
"Everything was looking more positive than negative", Jenkins Hernandez told McGraw in a clip of the interview posted online before the television broadcast.
"It's just not the Aaron that I know". "[It] had nothing to do with any suicidal thoughts. I don't know. I don't know". It is said that Hernandez had the words "John 3:16" written on his forehead when he was found in his cell, a reference to a Bible verse popular in jails and prisons.
Hernandez, convicted of murdering Lloyd, was serving a life sentence at Souza-Baranowski Correctional Center in Shirley when a guard found him hanged from a bedsheet.
"Not to my knowledge", Jenkins-Hernandez responded. She wore her engagement ring in the Dr. Phil interview.
She said she spoke with Hernandez on the telephone the night before his death and "there was no indication at all" that he was thinking about taking his life, since it seemed like a "completely normal" conversation. "I try to keep her in a whole positive direction". According to Jenkins-Hernandez, there were no red flags in his behavior leading up to his death.
In her final conversation with Hernandez, Jenkins-Hernandez says that Aaron actually sounded upbeat.
"It screamed love, but it wasn't personal, it wasn't intimate". She said the letter had some "odd parts", one being that he addressed it to "Shay" instead of "Babe" or "Bae", as he usually referred to her. I thought that was a little odd to me. According to his fiancee, the suicide note Aaron Hernandez left for her was unusual and not necessarily written as she imagined he would have done.
Asked how she felt about the handwriting in the note, Jenkins said, "the handwriting was similar", while noting that in prison, "you've got nothing but time". I've said it over and over. She also says that she "wants answers". It was very short, I wanted more, wanted him to explain. "It's kind of like I was just the chaperone, in a sense", she said.